Ang pinaka abalang buwan ngayon taon (Sa palagay ko)

I started the month with a bang in Boracay! The island really captured my heart and I will surely go back here. Ive never seen too many foreigners in my life before. There are foreigners everywhere I look, everywhere I go and everywhere I eat! I had so much fun despite the gastos and pagod :)

After a week, our department had a team building in Caliraya. Join pa rin! Its nice to meet new people and play games/activities with officemates. The most unforgettable with this experience is the MUD SLIDE. It was crazy! I tried it twice even though its cold and dirty :)

I had a rest on the third weekend. Oooopss, not a rest literally, I meant a rest from gala. Its time for rest day overtime. Too much work will kill ya.

One last hirit, Il be in Banio Creek for star gazing on the 30th (wherever that may be) I really dont know where that resort is, but what the heck eh? For as long as Im not alone, its ok. :)


More OT's this coming week! Cmon! Ano bang pakiramdam ng kumpleto ang tulog???

Not now please.

Im feeling sick. Headache. Chill. My throat hurts. I can't afford to be on sick leave. I have so much to do this week.



Because of that Ibong Adarna in the office... my LSS for today is "If I should love again, if I find someone new.. it would be make believe for in my heart it would be you...." Nakakairita siya!

This week

Kaye's photo exhibit - Her class is going to have an exhibit this week somewhere in Malate. Im planning to bring my mom there too (hopefully I could find time)

I joined the volunteers for Ilog Pasig clean up - on April 30th, 7am to 12nn. Di ko lang alam kung san gaganapin :P

Rogelio Sicat - someone reminded me this morning of this. OMG! anong petsa na, hindi pa ako nagsusulat! At sana, kung may maisulat man ako, sana ay matanggap :(

My berks in the office is planning to have a taste of the summer this weekend sa Laguna. Sana maraming makasama!

Strangers again.

I saw you today and realized how far apart we’ve grown. I know I should talk to you and ask you how you’re doing. And I really wish I could. But it’s just occurred to me that we’re strangers now. You don’t know me anymore, much less want to, and it’s okay that you’ve moved on. I know that everything’s different now. I’ve been staying strong. (from google)

Random Thoughts

1. Few days left before my 9-day-vacation!!!! wooohooo
2. May mga tao lang talagang mas madaling kalimutan kaysa pagtiyagaan at pahalagahan.
3. Miss ko na ang jollibee spaghetti.
4. Photowalk, photowalk, photowalk...
5. Baguio City!
6. Bakit Kalabaw ang ginagamit ng mga farmers sa pagsasaka?
7. Ang tula. Bow.

A is for...

Someone asked. "Anne, whats the first letter of your name stands for?"

I said - adventurous and artistic.

I forgot to say--

affectionate - because I am loving :)
appreciative - I thank the God above for all the blessings I receive, from the biggest to smallest ones.
acidic - Acid has always been my problem since my teenage years.
abnornal - uhmmm... yeah.
absurd - most of the time I do things without good reasons. Just that I want to do it.
accessible - anyone can reach out to me. (except for money hahaha)
attainable - Im no different even if I look mataray
alcoholic - I used to be.
ambitious - I have big dreams.
aspiring - an aspiring writer


hahaha!

Random Thoughts

1. "It came over me in a rush when I realized that I love you so much."

2. I canceled my VL tonight because I love my job. Hah!

3. Baguio City... Baguio City... Baguio City...

4. Wanna go to UP Oval again one of these days.

5. Why am I addicted with FB again?!

6. Been dying to watch "Tangled"

7. "Aspaltong Gubat"

8. Gusto ko na siyang i-text... nagpipigil lang ako.

9. My Greatest Temptation

10. Story writing contest result...

Addicted to this song

There's no more waiting
Holding out for love
You are my Godsend
That I have been forever dreaming of
My angel from above

Heaven knows
I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost in you

What is this feeling
I've never known before
That I should touch you
Swearing to surrender ever more
That's what I came here for

Heaven knows
I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost in a wonderful daze
Lost in your wonderful ways

Heaven knows

When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost

Heaven knows
I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost in you

Walang dahilan para ngumiti this week.

Gusto kong isigaw sa mukha nya "ANO BANG GINAWA KO SAYO PARA IWASAN MO AKO?!" hindi naman ako demanding na kaibigan. Ni hindi ko nga hiniling sa kanyang kamustahin din ako sa tuwing kinakamusta ko sya. Ganun naman siya, pag tinanong mo ng 'kamusta?' sasagot lang siya ng 'ok lang'. Ni hindi manlang magtatanong ng 'e ikaw, kamusta?' kahit manlang pabalat-bunga.

Ni hindi ko naman siya kinukulit sa text. Hindi rin ako nagla-like o nagco-comment sa posts nya sa FB! 

Ni hindi ako nagpakita na nasaktan ako nung sabihin niyang iba-iba ang level ng mga friends nya at isa lang akong acquaintance. Tang ina, acquaintance? Nagbubuhos ka ba ng sama ng loob sa isang acquaintance?

Kahit manhid sya, kahit hindi gentleman, kahit kuripot, suplado, masungit, moody, perfectionist, etc... sige pa rin ako sa pakikipagkaibigan sa kanya because I felt somehow, nag eenjoy rin naman siyang kasama ako. Nasanay akong lagi siyang nakakausap at nakakakwentuhan while eating. Tapos isang araw pag gising ko, nagbago na siya. hindi niya na ako kinakausap na parang hindi niya kakilala! as in! Daig ko pa isang stranger. Para akong invisible na hindi niya nakikita. Ang sakit kaya non!

Sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, hindi ko na tinapos basahin yung book na hiniram ko sa kanya.

Nalulungkot tuloy ako ngayon at OO, NAMI MISS KO NA SIYA! SOBRA. Niyaya ko siya last week na manood ng movie or gumala this weekend, sabi niya titingnan niya. Ayoko nang ulitin itanong kung free ba siya kasi alam kong di na nya sasagutin ang text ko. Nagmumukha na akong tanga.

Tinanong ko din na siya kung galit siya, sabi niya hindi daw. Pero bakit bigla siyang nagbago?! bakit? bakit?? bakit??? Kung dati kasing cold lang siya ng Baguio ngayon Alaska na.

Sana manlang nalaman ko kung ano bang maling ginawa ko para hindi ako puzzled diba?

Kailangan ko sana siya ngayon, gusto ko ng mapapaglabasan ng sama ng loob sa mundo, makakasama kumain at makakasabay sa pagtawa habang nanonood ng movie.

Hay, kung anuman ang ginagawa niya sa mga oras na 'to. Sana happy siya.

kwik updeyts

Nakakamiss. Nagkahigpitan sa office kaya hindi ko nabibisita ang blog ko. Pagdating ko naman sa umaga sa bahay, pagod na at lahat ng idea na naisip ko kinagabihan ay lumipas na. Nakakapanghinayang ang mga araw na dumadaan na sana'y marami na akong natapos isulat, pero ganunpaman, ano nga bang magagawa ko, mas importante ang trabaho ko. Tsk.

Araw-araw akong nananabik sa pagpasok ng Nobyembre. Sana matupad ang wish ko.

Nakalipat na ako ng team kaya naman sobrang tutok ako sa trabaho ng mga nakaraang linggo. kailangan kong magseryoso para hindi mapagiwanan. nakakastress lang minsan, nakakatunaw ng braincells, info overload. naglabasan sabay sabay ang mga gigantic pimples ko dahil sa stress. nakipagbalikan ako sa ex ko - si marlboro lights. Alam kong muli ko syang iiwanan sa mga darating na araw, pero sa ngayon, kailangan ko pa sya kaya kami muna ulit.

Wag mong babasagin ang mga trip ko sa buhay.

Ayoko sa lahat yung pinapaki alaman kung ano man ang trip ko sa buhay. May pagka autistic kasi ako, kung ano yung boring - yun ang gusto ko. Katulad ng pagsusulat at pagbabasa, yung ang dalawang halimbawa ng mga paborito kong gawain. Kulang lang talaga ako sa oras.


Siguro kung marami akong oras, napakarami ko nang naisulat at siguro kung nagkaroon pa ako ng mas maraming oras, nakapag aral na ako ng tungkol sa pagsusulat or kahit self study lang para lumawak ang vocabulary ko both in tagalog and english.


Ayoko ng taong magpapanggap na interesado sa ginagawa ko pero hindi naman pala talaga. Ayokong-ayoko ng nagpe-pretend na nagugustuhan nya ang mga gusto ko din. Di bale nang mag isa lang ako, basta wag na wag kang magco-comment sa kung anong ginagawa ko.

Pagdating naman sayo, wala akong pakialam kung mas trip mong manood ng cartoons or matulog or makipagdaldalan, kiber ako dyan. Magpakasaya ka. Basta't wala tayong pakialamanan.

Kung wala kang sasabihing matino, tikom mo na lang yang bibig mo. Madafaka.

Me tired.

I dont feel like giving it a shot anymore. I think another try to continue the relationship is another waste of time. I am tired of arguments and the drama and the suyo stage. I am tired of pointing out who is wrong or who is right. Feelings is not to be considered, because that's a different story. But I dont believe in the song "Love will keep us alive". Love alone cannot survive. Love, when it comes to relationship needs commitment, understanding and sacrifice.

When you love, you need to have a narrow mind. You need to weigh things all the time. The pros and cons of your actions and why you are acting it out.

I feel I am stuck in this relationship. I am misunderstood by my actions and yet I am the one who always need to neutralize things up. I am tired of not being trusted. I am tired of doubts and accusations.

I am tired. Few more days will really blow me up.

kwikapdeyts

Inspite of all the efforts, late pa rin akong dumating sa office. 7:00 ang simula ng meeting. Alas kuwatro pa lang ng hapon gising na ako. Hindi na ako kumain sa bahay (wala pa rin namang luto) at nag take out na lang ako ng food from jabi. Ang hirap pa mag abang ng taxi sa Paseo. Ironic talaga. Kahit anong effort ang gawin mo, late pa rin. Naalala ko tuloy nung morning shift pa ako na lagi ako cry baby sa byahe dahil napaka-traffic sa EDSA sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos.


Nakakatawa yung kapitbahay naming barbero. Nanghiram siya ng gunting sa kapatid ko (which is mine) dahil may gugupitan daw siya!


Kaninang umaga, I had breakfast with someone. Naglabas ng sama ng loob tungkol sa jowa niya. Sa sobrang kasamaan ng lover niya, nahawa ako sa galit. Kung pwede ko lang ikwento dito ng detalye, malamang lahat ng makakabasa nitong blog ko ay magagalit din don. Promise! Kaya sa tuwing makikita ko o makakasalubong ngayon dito sa opisina yung taong yon, umaakyat sa ulo ang lahat ng dugo ko at gusto kong sugurin at saktan to the max para magtino!


Had dinner in a resto near the office with team mates. Sobrang busog. Ang saya ng pagkanta ng mga crew sa dalawang birthday celebrants. Haha! Ang kulet talaga!

Mga taxi driver na mandaraya!

Ayoko sa lahat ng iniisahan ako ng kapwa ko. Male-late na ako kagabi at umuulan pa kaya napilitan ako mag taxi ulit. Ang bwisit na driver may daya yung metro! Lintik na matanda yon! Normally, from Global hanggang sa amin ay 185 pesos lang pero, putakte, inabot kagabi ng 230. Sobrang asar talaga pero wala akong magawa. Bakit ba ganyan ang karamihan ng mga taxi? Makarma sana kayong lahat dahil sa panlalamang ninyo sa kapwa nyo! Leche kayo!

I Like!

I have always loved taking pictures. This passion is expensive and I never had the chance to cultivate this art except when I was in high school where photography class is part of our curriculum.
Right now, I have one item on my mind. Im want to buy one hopefully before the year ends. It is user friendly (as I read) and by far the cheapest Ive seen in the market.

As sure as I'm standing here

Sometimes I look at you

Sad and so beautiful

Young and alone

And so far from home

Much too much for you

Much too soon

Empty eyes gazin' at the moon

As sure as I'm standing here

You'll never have to be afraid

As sure as I'm standing here

I'll try and help you find your way

Oh I swear, as sure as I'm standing here

You'll never need to be alone

You've got my word

As sure as I'm standing here

Sometimes I look at you

Sleepin' like a baby

Your hair combed with sunlight

Full of sweet days

You say nothin' matters

Say you know how it is

Did you think it would be like this?

But sure as standing here

You'll never have to be afraid

As sure as I'm standing here

I'll try and help you find your way

Oh I swear, as sure as I'm standing here

You'll never need to be alone

You've got my word

As sure as I'm standing here

Oh I swear as sure as I'm standing here

Barry Manilow

Genie where are you?

I want to have a vacation. I dont want an expensive one. I dont want big amusement parks or buildings or europe right now. I just want a house like that one in "Something's gotta give" movie or the one in "Nights in Rodanthe".


If only a genie will appear in front of me just by rubbing my stupid coffee mug, I will wish for a week of vacation. Maybe in Baguio or somewhere close to nature. Just like the Forks Town of Washington State in the movie Twilight. I love Nature. It helps me relax.


I want a vacation house with big windows overlooking a lake or a sea. I want big beds with white sheets and antique wood furnitures. I want to eat veggies and fruits while having a picnic. I want to sleep at night after watching a classic movie. I want to wake up in the morning and take a walk in the streets full of trees and grass and flowers.... I want a country home or a house near the beach.

Genie, where are you?

Gone For Good - The Shins

Untie me, I've said no vows

The train is getting way too loud

I gotta leave here my girl

Get on with my lonely life

Just leave the ring on the rail

For the wheels to nullify

Until this turn in my head

I let you stay and you paid no rent

I spent twelve long months on the lam

That's enough sitting on the fence

For the fear of breaking dams

I'd find a fatal flaw

In the logic of love

And go out of my head

You love a sinking stone

That'll never elope

So get used to the lonesome

Girl, you must atone some

Don't leave me no phone number there

It took me all of a year

To put the poison pill to your ear

But now I stand on honest ground, on honest ground

You want to fight for this love

But honey you cannot wrestle a dove

So baby it's clear

You want to jump and dance

But you sat on your hands

And lost your only chance

Go back to your hometown

Get your feet on the ground

And stop floating around

I found a fatal flaw

In the logic of love

And went out of my head

You love a sinking stone

That'll never elope

So get used to used to the lonesome

Girl, you must atone some

Don't leave me no phone number there

Ang Background Music Ko.

Alam mo ba ang kantang KOKOMO ng The Beach Boys? Inilabas ang kantang ito noong 1988. Classic. Nag number 1 ito sa billboard noon Nov 5 1988. Masaya ang awiting ito kaya naman ng marining ko ito sa office pag upo ko pa lang ay natuwa ako at sumabay pa ako (fan din kasi ako ng mga old songs.)


Pero ang marinig ito ng limang beses sa loob lamang ng apat na oras habang nagtatrabaho ay hindi nakakatuwa. At kahit gusto ko ang kantang ito, parang gusto nang sumabog ng tenga ko. Ano pa kaya ang mangyayari sa susunod na limang oras pa habang nandito ako sa office?

Isama pa ang mga kantang Copacabana, Tide is High at Surfin USA. ;p Tinatawanan ko lang kahit masakit na ang ulo ko. Kailangan pa rin naman ng salitang "pakikisama" kahit saang lugar.

Private Moments

I am not good when it comes to explaining my side. Maybe that's why people say that I act as if I am always right. Ive been impressed as selfish, self-centered and insensitive. I always have a hard time elaborating what I want and what I need and that results to conflicts and arguments.

When it comes to privacy, I share what I wanted to share and keep quiet with the things I dont want to open up. If I dont tell it to them straight, it means I dont want to share it with them. I dont want people to intrude the prerequisite item in everyones life.


I am tired of arguments and I hate it when I cause pain to other people. So to end the misunderstandings, I will just simply accept and swallow all the negative things that people will say against me. I will let them blame me. Or curse me or whatever if that would make them feel more ok. I will just admit all the faults.

I will admit all the mistakes even the ones I dont really understand. But Im expecting them to allow me to do the things I wanted to do. Another issue that will be brought up regarding this again will really result to a deeper problem. I dont want to hurt others anymore. But please leave me alone with the things I want to do.


Adios.